by Robin on Sun Sep 27, 2009 10:07 pm
Erin, these words spoken might seem small and meaningless.
I know that you can feel nothing beyond the pain that rips constantly through your chest and your gut with no relief. I know that no one truly understands the depth and intensity of it all...
You feel dead, life is unappealing any more...
Hold on Erin, wander through each day a little longer. Give it more time, and wait on God. Some day soon you will see him so unexpectedly, in the smallest way, in the smallest voice you will hear him. And it will overwhelm you that something so gentle and loving could penetrate the thick stone wall of blackness that seems to surround you in this moment. But it will. He never left you. He stood beside you, fighting for you in the darkness when you couldn't see anything but evil. He whispered to you and spoke to you and guided you without you even knowing it, you just couldn't hear it because the pain was screaming so intensely.
But he never gave up, and he never left you.
He waits for you. He continues to fight for you. He continues to speak to you, to give you direction. Yes the pain is real. Yes the darkness is black, and yes the evil is smothering. But God is truly greater. Just breathe, he will provide each breath. Life and Hope will return to you, even tho the pain ripping through your chest remains. Wait on him... give it time for Him to do his work... for your spirit and soul and body to gain a little more strength and health each day. I know it's hard, but don't give up. God is real and he loves you more today than ever. This world is not home yet, it's a war zone. It's not a time to be comfortable, it's a time to stay focused when everything around you is blowing up and crumbling and dying. Sometimes we take an unbearable hit, but Jesus makes it bearable, miraculously, beyond our understanding or explanation. If we will only trust and wait and watch.
God is with you Erin, and nothing can snatch you out of his hand.
(((HUGs)))
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Queen Barby recently said > If we don't feel close to him we are the ones that walked away . he is still right beside us.
and Star said > ..lets do our best for the Master he gave his life for us..