by elbush on Fri Sep 25, 2009 11:21 pm
Maddie, he said he'd be ordering a blood test to check my liver enzymes; that's how he'll know! He loves to push medication on people, loves it. I've always been diagnosed as probably being bipolar II, which means I have hypomania, which is why I have such bad insomnia. Most doctors don't treat that with anything other than sleep medication, but this guy wants me to try another mood stabilizer. I tried one after the hospital, and it made me sick...they even said it was messing with my heart, wanted to give me an EKG. I'm really doing well with just sleeping medication. This doctor doesn't understand how the family and financial stress of this past year or how all that with all the cancer tests just pushed me over the edge this summer after that guy I was seeing turned out to be a lot like my ex-husband. I was responding to severe, prolonged stress, and have been feeling better. He doesn't care; he just wants to push medication that isn't healthy or affordable. He spent 40 minutes with me, yet wants to change my diagnosis to bipolar I, though doctors are cautioned to see patients for months before changing a diagnosis like that.
I was told while in the hospital that I could see the other doctor, Dr. L, on an outpatient basis, and all I know to do is type up a brief note reminding him of that and asking him to try to fit me in. Please, pray it works. If it doesn't, I give up. Even my therapist moved away to another town, and I've needed to be in therapy since all the domestic abuse stuff I went through w/ my ex, but finding one I can afford around here is nearly impossible. I'm so sick of the healthcare system in this country and my falling through the cracks. This doctor today stressed me out with his know-it-all attitude and treating me like anything I think about my problems isn't valid just because I'm not a doctor.
I really need prayers going up for me. Please, keep praying for me. A friend of mine got so sick on the medication this doctor wants me to take that he couldn't even get to work and had to stop taking it. I really need prayers, please.